Thursday, July 14, 2011

HOW TOUGH AM I



Well you know when I was younger, I felt like I could just take on anything. As I wanted to proof, I could do and be anything I wanted. But as the bums started coming and whatever held me to the past started bubbling up, I found it harder and harder to believe those words. You know you feel like you keep getting beaten down. Coming from a dysfunctional abusive home does not give you the best outlook on life when the arrows start coming at you. You seem to fight the battle over and over again. Sometimes it makes us focus on ourselves so much because you are digging out of that mentality of abuse, pain, wants, unhappiness and we can’t seem to focus on ourselves a whole lot.


So yesterday, I said we would talk about IDOLS. What is an idol?

Dictionary meaning: An image of a god used as an object of worship; especially, in the Bible,etc., a false god. Any person or thing that is greatly loved.

In Biblical terms it is something other than God that we set our heart on: Luke 12:29; 1 Cor. 10;19, that motivates us (1 Cor.4:5), that masters and rules us (Ps 119:133; Eps. 5:5), or that we trust, fear, or serve ( Isa. 42:17; Matt 6:24, Luke 12: 405….

An idol can also be referred to as a “false god” or a “function god”.

Now, I know I have scarred you because I’ve brought the bible into it. But you know, sometimes we need to bring the bible into our lives and thinking, so it can help us figure these things out. I’m not preaching at anyone, just trying to get some points across that maybe our problem we have with eating, hoarding, and spending are the many idols in our lives and it can cause lots of problems. Let me share with you. Because of my abusive family life as a child, I put my priorities on things that were the most important and that I did not have as a child. I never heard my mom say I love you growing up, but I finally did years later when I had to help take care of her when she was in a nursing home. Lost track again, well because I didn’t hear those words, when my children were born and in raising them I said I love you all the time to them and I also told my husband all the time and still do to this day. So sometimes we have to look at what motivates us to do some of the things we do. What’s your motivation. I’m still working on looking for all of mine. We will probably find that we have very many. We are a selfish people and we want what we want, and sometimes that hard to admit to ourselves and especially to others. But let me give you a little hint here, sometimes our idols is self. Ponder on that and see what you think. I know I have been pondering and it’s hard to admit that myself is my idol, I don’t want to diet, I don’t want to exercise, I don’t want to watch every little thing I eat. I want to feed my ego so I can just enjoy myself. Hope to see you again soon. Keep digging down in there and see what you come up with. Life is good and I want to live it more than just sat in my rocking chair and watch television holding my doggy. Will talk to you soon.



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